I can't believe it's already been two years. Almost to the minute. Scary! I don't know why it just hit me this year though, but last night, my heart hurt so bad I could barely breathe. And today I just felt numb to everything and everyone. Like life is so hopeless. Everytime I see your mom I get this sadness that lingers. It makes me remember you. The good times. (cuz there were never any bad times until you were gone.) Its so sad though to be reminded of your absence.
I guess you could say that I've tried to erase this day from my mind. I didn't believe it then and I still don't believe it now. I don't think I'll ever be able to say goodbye. I see it so clearly playing through my mind. Its as if it just happened a minute ago. I didn't cry. Not because I didn't want to and not becaause it didn't hurt, but because it really didn't sink in. I honestly did not believe it. It was like I just pretended it was someone else. Some other girl named KT. Yeah right hey?
I remember sitting in Lynnseys car comforting her and telling her how God had perpared me for it . Like all day I just knew something wasn't right. And God told me it was because I needed to be strong. To be there for Lynnsey and the rest of the gang that loved you so much. It was so strange. The peace, ya know. Part of the shock I guess. I often wonder..... Did you know it was coming?...Could you sense that you were going to leave us? I guess I'll only know when I see you in heaven.
I really miss you KT. I'm sorry for taking our coffee for granted. I wasn't even that dissapointed when we had to postpone it cuz I knew for sure that it was gonna happen some day soon. But it didn't.
I still expect to see you bouncing into DQ with your mom, and me sneaking you extra topping on your hotfudge and strawberry sundae with lotsa peanuts. and those orange pants! lol . I know you're dancing on the clouds with Jesus right now in those very pants.
We had so many good times, I wish that we could still be having that much fun. One day soon maybe.
The world is missing out on you my dear friend. Your smile. Your laugh. Your craziness. haha. Your encouragement. The way you never ceased to be upbeat. Your faith. Your LIFE. You inspired all of us to be better people. You left a mark that no one will ever match. EVER!
You are truely missed, deeply loved, and forever cherished.
Love you forever and a day!
Later friend. :)
Miss Norma Jean
