But I'm totally already over it! I told you it would pass. but it still felt amazing at the time. so yeah ....I suppose I should fill the rest of you in ....Last night for the first time in months I was giddy and excited. Over a stupid thing ...a boy...but the point of the matter is I was excited and happy about something once again. It felt so good. Now this said boy is really not stupid ..he just doesnt know I exist but thats okay.... I was going to feel bad about gushing to Lynns but then I was like no ...this is stupid. its just a silly crushy moment ....one of which I havn't had since Dierks Bentley ....(hey a girl can dream can't she) well anyway I knew it wasn't going to become anything but it was nice to think of the possibilities. I got thinking last night while walking that in the last few months ive become (scratch that ..I BECAME) the most depressing, unhappy, joy lacking person I have ever encountered. And I realized I don't want to live that way ...No matter how bad life is ...it can always get worse so be thankful to be alive anyway...I just couldnt see the light at the end of the tunnel. I had some really dark glasses on...seriously I scared myself. now, I'm not back to the completely bubbly person I was before but I'm on my way. These things take time..I can't just sleep on it and be done with it. I gotta work through it ..but I will and I am ..and thats good enough for the time being. I just feel like writing and writing but this would be a longer more boring blog than it already is ....plus I'm going to try to stick to just one subject so the rest of this will have to wait for another blog ..but thats okay ..then I can narrow down the thoughts ...anyway the point of this blog was to just say how nice it was to be happy again...like just stupidly, pure and simply happy. Even if it was for the most stupid and immature of reasons...I know Lynnsey was thinking good greif woman get ahold of yourself and shut up ....but even in spite of that i know she was thouroghly entertained by my ramblings and most likely happy that I'm no longer just sitting and stewing in my unhappiness. so thanx for letting me ramble Lynns and don't worry tonight there will be no talk of boys....unless to devise our evil scheme to convice Grant hes acutally crazy ..but we can work that out later....okay ...I'm done now I think ..at least for this hour. thanx for listening ....and do comment....or just say hi ..that would be cool too ...oh yeah and if you have myspace please add me...Im still a little computer illiterate when it comes to those thingers ..so go ahead and add me friends...ill have pictures up soon.... www.myspace.com/missnormarenee okey dokey ...okay....yeah ...i had to use my real name becuase norma jean was already taken ...apparently its a band...Im not sure ..i should look into that ...or if any of you have info please feel free to share. but yeah ...anyway add me and have a great evening if I'm not talking to you again .....heres to being happy!
Love Norma
