Sorry I haven't updated this in forever. But I didn't think anyone read this one anymore. or ever for that matter. so ...Joe wasn't number one..Chris young is..but thats fine with me too. Joe placed number 6...which out of like a hundred thats pretty good. anyhoo. Quite a bit has happened in my world since that last blog. I think most importantly I have a new outlook on life. Ive finaly come to the realization that life is too short to be miserable. And, yes, I know I've said that before. But this time im actually taking action to back that up. Im more spontaneous and fun. I actually live in the moment. Im not worried about what tomorrow will bring and I have no regrets from yesterday. I've actually been able to just LET GO and LIVE!!!! and let me tell ya ...its AWESOME!!!. its so nice to not feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. Its so nice to not have to worry about who im impressing or disappointing or whatever.. ya know. Im just me and that's all Im ever gonna be ...I hope to be a better me everyday ..but thats for me to determine not you to judge. I haven't been back to church yet. But I have been reading my Bible. Not from a "discipleship" standpoint ..moreso just as a piece of literature..and here's the funny thing. .. I've gotten more out of it and it makes more sense..Just reading it ..Then it ever did when I was "studying" it, and searching so desperately for Gods will and answers and what have you. Don't worry I'm not going all hardcore and uber fanatic or anything again, its just nice for things to make sense. Its nice to find a balance. Its also nice to have a life. Coming to the realization that drinking is not a sin and bars are not satans hide out..I've actually had a lot of fun in the last couple months..most of it good clean fun..and haven't felt guilty over it at all. Wow GO ME! I used to have a major guilt complex. (ask anyone who truly knew me) anyway that's besides the point... Point is ...I've had a lot of fun ..and its been really great to reconnect with old friends. And I'm just so happy to be free. Free from everything.... Me and God are still working out some issues...but that, again, is for me and God to work out. I don't need people telling me what I should or need or am supposed to do. And how disappointing I am to the missions world. Get over it. I need to learn things at my own pace. and figure things out in a way I understand them. Not just naively believe everything that's told to me by some superior. Why I felt the need to go that direction im not sure...Maybe its because all my churchy friends have been asking how im doing. and don't really believe me when I say I'm great, because it never used to be true. I really am great though and Im not going to apologize, even though I know you're all so very disappointed with me for associating myself with worldly folk. Thats not my problem or stress case anymore. Anyway ..This blog was supposed to have been an update...and it turned into a bit of a rant. No surprise. but its a blog nonetheless. And I did update you. Hit me with some comments. Id be glad to read em.
Miss Norma Jean
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Andreas commented:
Hey norma, it's great to read an update from you. I always check this blog....do you have another one? anyways, I am really glad to hear that things are going so well for you. And it's really great that you are on your own path with God, and not one that is cookie cutter, one size fits all. I imagine it is really freeing. And the guilt thing, tell me about it! Anyways, keep updating...Love Melly
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